| Location | Bolton |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 8/2005 |
| Date of Death | 01/08/2005 |
| Visitors | 1,939 since 18/08/2007 |
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Sam due date: 3rd March 2006
Sam passed away: 1st August 2005.
Sam was our precious child that we never got to meet. He was wanted so much and the minute I found
out that I was carrying him, I wanted him with every ounce of my being.
I had to have an operation whilst pregnant with him and the doctors believe this is why my precious
child slipped away. I blame myself everyday for having this operation and wonder whether he would
still be here today if I hadn't of had this surgery.
I was 12 weeks pregnant when I had my surgery and I was really worried about the risks, the doctors
told me then it was a 10% risk of miscarry but they insisted I had the operation as if my appendix
burst we could have both been in serious trouble. ( I later found out the risk was more like 40%
than 10%) To further add to this the doctors said my appendix was fine.
I had my operation on the 25th July 2005 (my mums birthday of all days !) and the next day when I
woke up I thought we'd both be fine, I went home the next day to rest. A couple of days later the
1st August 2005, I went to see my mum and I started to bleed, I knew there and then he was gone, My
partner Sean and my mum were worried and said I should go up to the hospital to get checked out,
after a 3 hour wait in A&E I was transferred up to the Early pregancy unit and to be honest they did
nothing, no scan no tests nothing, just a shot of pethidine because by this point I was in alot of
pain. I had to stay in to be monitored and I really did'nt want to stay because the male midwife was
awful and in the end my mum shouted at him ! Thankfully the shift changed at 9 and a new midwife
called Kathy came on. She was absolutely brilliant. She advised me to get some sleep so my mum and
Sean went home about 10.30. I managed to drop off to sleep and the next thing I remember is waking
up needing the loo.
I was bleeding heavily at this point and buzzed for Kathy and she took one look at me and said we
need a doctor to come and take a look at you,I think you might be hemorraging. The doctor came and
thankfully was a woman ! It was at this point when the doctor was examining me that Sam slipped
away.
I have never felt so alone in all my life, Sean and my mum where on their way and that 20 minutes
felt the longest in my life.
The midwife Kathy was amazing, she never left my side till sean and Mum got there, I will forever be
truly grateful to her.
When I had some time to with Sean, Kathy came in and asked if I would like Sam to be blessed by the
Priest so she rang and asked him to come. By this point she had placed him in a small wooden box and
brought him to us.
The little service was beautiful and meant so much, Sam stayed with me all night, the next morning I
wanted to go home and be with Maya so I took Sam with me. At this point I was given three options
either have the hospital run tests on Sam to find out why he had passed, have him cremated at the
hospital and have his ashes or have a small burial, I chose the burial so that he could be with my
Mums mum, Nanna Edna, I just didn't want him to be on his own. I had Sam at home until his funeral
on 8th August 2005. We had our preist do a small blessing at the graveside.
We tried to keep him here but the angels must have needed him more we pray everyday that he is save
and happy with our special Grandparents who have also passed.
Sam has an older sister Maya and a younger brother Charlie and we will always make sure they
remember their special brother. He will always be part of all our lives.
We love you Sam and think of you everyday and wish you were with us.
Please watch over us all
Sweet dreams our special little man until Mummy and daddy can be with you x x x
Sam's great grandad Walter Hargreaves and his Great Nanna Joyce Hughes (who passed very recently)
also have dedications on Gone too Soon please light a candle for them too, it would bring great
comfort.
I would just like to Say a HUGE THANKYOU for all your messages of support and candles for Sam, they
have been a huge comfort.
God bless you all
My prcious son Sam
My sammy sunshine, thats what you are alittle ray of sunshine, shinning down on us all. There isnt a day goes by that i dont think about you nore a night go by that i dont pray to you. Iknow looking at me you wouldnt think i cared but i do, i like to keep my immotions inside and try to look like the strong type when really im devastated. I love you so so much and not a day goes by i dont blame myself for you slipping away, im so sorry good night god bless lots of love daddy xxxxxxxxxx
Hello beautiful, sorry no candle yesterday, your Great Nanna Joyce has joined you in paradise. Please look after her and send her all our love - I will try and leave a candle for you everyday this week but if I cant please understand why. I love you so so much little man x x Miss you x x x
A little peom for you
Not gone from Daddy's memory,
Not gone from Mummy's love,
But gone to shine with Jesus
In his beautiful home above
xxxxxx
They say there
They say there is a reason.
They sat that time will heal.
But neither time or reason
Will change the way we feel,
For no one knows the heartache,
That lies beyond our smiles.
No one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.
Miss you little man x x x
Dont let them say I was'nt born,
That something stopped my heart,
It does'nt mean that I am gone,
This world was worthy not of me,
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face,
You have my word,I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was meant to be,
God does'nt make mistakes.
But that wont soften your worst blows,
or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
Another child you will bear.
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my faceand kiss my lips,
Then you'll understand.
Although I never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes.
That does'nt mean I never was...
An angel never dies.
Hello my precious boy, sorry not been on in a fair while, I just havent been up to it, please don't think that I dont dont think of you, as you are always on my mind. Hope you are having lots of fun with all your angel friends, missing you so so much little man - Love you millions x x x
Hello my special little man, hope you are having a lovely day, sorry not been on for a while - I haven't really been able to face it , hope you liked your wind chime I took this week, you're always in my thoughts little man love you millions and millions x x x
Hi our special little man, please watch over your big sister Maya tomorrow for us on her first day at school. We love and miss you so so much, thinking of you always our little prince x x x
The angels sang amazing grace
th lord came down
and touched your face
He held you hand and whispered low
'Come with me, it's time to go'
The gates of heaven opened wide
The angels lined up side by side
A special guest was on the way
The day they took our baby away
A letter from heaven
To my dearest family – some things I’d like to say,
But first of all to let you know that I’ve arrived ok,
I’m writing this from heaven; here I dwell with God above,
There are no more tears of sadness – just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy because I am out of sight,
Remember that I am with you – morning, noon and night.
The day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up, hugged me and said – “I welcome you.
It’s good to have you back again – you were missed while you were gone,
As for your family – they’ll be here later on.
I need you here badly – you are part of my plan,
There’s so much we have to do to help our mortal man.”
God gave me a list of things that he wanted me to do,
And foremost on the list was to watch and care for you.
When you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight,
God and I are close to you in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth and all those missing years,
Because you are only human they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry – it does relieve the pain,
Remember there would be no flowers unless there was the rain.
I wish I could tell, all that God had planned,
If I were to tell you – you wouldn’t understand.
But one thing is for certain though my life on earth is o’er,
I’m closer to you now than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it taking it one day at a time.
It was always your philosophy and I would like it too,
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who’s in sorrow or in pain,
Then you can say to God at night – my day was not in vain.
So if you meet somebody who’s sad and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick them up as on your way you go.
When you’re walking down the street and you’ve got me on your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps only half a step behind,
And when it’s time for you to go from that body to be free,
Remember you’re not going – but coming home to me!
xxxx
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