| Location | Bolton |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 8/2005 |
| Date of Death | 01/08/2005 |
| Visitors | 1,938 since 18/08/2007 |
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Sam due date: 3rd March 2006
Sam passed away: 1st August 2005.
Sam was our precious child that we never got to meet. He was wanted so much and the minute I found
out that I was carrying him, I wanted him with every ounce of my being.
I had to have an operation whilst pregnant with him and the doctors believe this is why my precious
child slipped away. I blame myself everyday for having this operation and wonder whether he would
still be here today if I hadn't of had this surgery.
I was 12 weeks pregnant when I had my surgery and I was really worried about the risks, the doctors
told me then it was a 10% risk of miscarry but they insisted I had the operation as if my appendix
burst we could have both been in serious trouble. ( I later found out the risk was more like 40%
than 10%) To further add to this the doctors said my appendix was fine.
I had my operation on the 25th July 2005 (my mums birthday of all days !) and the next day when I
woke up I thought we'd both be fine, I went home the next day to rest. A couple of days later the
1st August 2005, I went to see my mum and I started to bleed, I knew there and then he was gone, My
partner Sean and my mum were worried and said I should go up to the hospital to get checked out,
after a 3 hour wait in A&E I was transferred up to the Early pregancy unit and to be honest they did
nothing, no scan no tests nothing, just a shot of pethidine because by this point I was in alot of
pain. I had to stay in to be monitored and I really did'nt want to stay because the male midwife was
awful and in the end my mum shouted at him ! Thankfully the shift changed at 9 and a new midwife
called Kathy came on. She was absolutely brilliant. She advised me to get some sleep so my mum and
Sean went home about 10.30. I managed to drop off to sleep and the next thing I remember is waking
up needing the loo.
I was bleeding heavily at this point and buzzed for Kathy and she took one look at me and said we
need a doctor to come and take a look at you,I think you might be hemorraging. The doctor came and
thankfully was a woman ! It was at this point when the doctor was examining me that Sam slipped
away.
I have never felt so alone in all my life, Sean and my mum where on their way and that 20 minutes
felt the longest in my life.
The midwife Kathy was amazing, she never left my side till sean and Mum got there, I will forever be
truly grateful to her.
When I had some time to with Sean, Kathy came in and asked if I would like Sam to be blessed by the
Priest so she rang and asked him to come. By this point she had placed him in a small wooden box and
brought him to us.
The little service was beautiful and meant so much, Sam stayed with me all night, the next morning I
wanted to go home and be with Maya so I took Sam with me. At this point I was given three options
either have the hospital run tests on Sam to find out why he had passed, have him cremated at the
hospital and have his ashes or have a small burial, I chose the burial so that he could be with my
Mums mum, Nanna Edna, I just didn't want him to be on his own. I had Sam at home until his funeral
on 8th August 2005. We had our preist do a small blessing at the graveside.
We tried to keep him here but the angels must have needed him more we pray everyday that he is save
and happy with our special Grandparents who have also passed.
Sam has an older sister Maya and a younger brother Charlie and we will always make sure they
remember their special brother. He will always be part of all our lives.
We love you Sam and think of you everyday and wish you were with us.
Please watch over us all
Sweet dreams our special little man until Mummy and daddy can be with you x x x
Sam's great grandad Walter Hargreaves and his Great Nanna Joyce Hughes (who passed very recently)
also have dedications on Gone too Soon please light a candle for them too, it would bring great
comfort.
I would just like to Say a HUGE THANKYOU for all your messages of support and candles for Sam, they
have been a huge comfort.
God bless you all
Have A Good Weekend Everyone
GOD,
*.*.*.OPENED
* ...*.*. THE WINDOWS
* * .* *.*.*.* OF HEAVEN.
.*) .*) *.*.*LOOKED AT ME
. (... *.*.*.**.*.*.*AND ASKED,
..*(...) .*.*.*.*.* **.*. *WHAT IS YOUR
* ....(...) * . * . * .* *PRAYER
* .*.. *....* (...) * .*FOR
.. *..(...). *....* .*TODAY?
.* ... *.... * *. * . * .**I
. * . * . . * . *.*. * . **ANSWERED:
__00000___00000 *.*. * .* .*GOD
_0000000_0000000. * . * .*TAKE
_0000 OOOO 00000. * . * .*CARE
__0000000000000 * . ** .*OF THE
___00000000000 * . *. * . * .*PERSON
_____0000000 * . *. * . ** *.*THAT
_______000 * . *. * * * .*.*IS
________0* . * .. ** .. * .*.*READING
. * .. ** .. * . * . * .* . *.*THIS
. * . (.. *** /) * .*.*MESSAGE
* . * ( ..(_)/ ) * * .BECAUSE
* . * (_ /|.. _) . **.* THIS PERSON IS
* . * . /___.. * . .* .*SO
. * * . * . * *SPECIAL
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥I’m always here to lend a had♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥
♥I JUST DID♥
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
We never understand heartache until it lands upon our door the hurt we feel of losing you will be with us forever more love to you and your family xxx (¨`•.•´¨) (¨`•.•´¨) `•.¸(¨`•.•´ ¨) ¸.•´ ×Xx `•.¸.•´xXx
so sorry
I am so sorry for your sad loss. You have two such beautiful children but I know that you will always feel it should have been three. Keep strong for your other children and keep sam alive in your head. He will always be with you and your family.
Happy Mothers Day Mummy
A kiss to you on mothers day
A hug from me to you
I know that you are sad sometimes
I know that that you are blue
Please wipe away your tears
Put on a happy face
For i'm up here in heaven now
Oh! mummy what a lovely place
I've got my wings so i can fly
They're white with a hint of blue
I'm big now mummy, with these wings of mine
They carry me to visit you
I'm learning how to catch your prayers
Prayers that come as wishes
Your wish is the same everyday
A wish that i had stayed
I have a prayer for you mummy
I pray you will hear
They need me here mummy
I have no pain or fear
For i am an angel now you see
I watch over you night and day
A little piece of heaven on earth
Guiding you on your way
I come to tuck you in at night
As you used to do to me
I hear your prayer and kiss your cheek
And then watch you dream
Before i leave to go back home
I look at you and sigh
As i fly back to heaven i sing you a lullaby
A kiss to you on mothers day
A hug from me to you
I love you mummy
Please dont cry
You'll get to hold me soon xxxxx
Sending you lots of love on Mothers Day
You are always in my thoughts
Love Kerry xXxXx
Happy valentines day
Thinking of you and your loving family and sending you lots of love.xx
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_***_________*IM*___ ______***__
__***_____*THINKING* _____***___
___***_______*OF*___ ____***____
____***_____*YOU*___ ___***_____
______***____SAM _____***______
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A pair of shoes
A pair of shoes
I am weaing a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
Uncomfortable shoes
I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I on not think I can take another step
Yet, I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes thay they are glad they are my shoes and not their's
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realise I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
Yet, beacuse of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
It explains exactly how I feel
Love you Sam
xxxxxxxxxx
Sorry
Hi little man sorry not been on in a while , thinks have been really difficult lately, but Im sure you understand why. Although I haven't been here everyday I think of you always I love you little Man x x x
xx thinking of you xx
Hello Ria, you seem to have had a really tough time lately what with your nana passing away too. I'm so sorry. I know what you mean about sometimes not being able to face coming on. I feel like that too sometimes, you've just got to do what is best for you and like you say, our babies will never be out of our thoughts, wherever we are.
Thinking of you and your family, stay strong xx
Thankyou Ria.xx
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----------OOOO------ --------THINKING OF YOUR
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------------OO------ --------------- ANGEL SAM
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---------OOOOOO----- -------- THANKYOU FOR ALL
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---------OOOOOO----- ------- YOUR SUPPORT
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---------OOOOOO----- ---GOD BLESS YOU
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---------OOOOOO----- ----LOTS OF LOVE
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Sorry
Hi little man
sorry no candles in a while, i have been finding it all too much as I miss you and nanna and grand so much - tomrrow is nannas internment of ashes and im struggling with the fact she isn't coming back.
Although I may not get here everyday I think of you always.
I love you so so much little man, come see me in my dreams sometime - Love you Sambo xXx
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