| Location | Bolton |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 8/2005 |
| Date of Death | 01/08/2005 |
| Visitors | 2,352 since 18/08/2007 |
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Sam due date: 3rd March 2006
Sam passed away: 1st August 2005.
Sam was our precious child that we never got to meet. He was wanted so much and the minute I found out that I was carrying him, I wanted him with every ounce of my being.
I had to have an operation whilst pregnant with him and the doctors believe this is why my precious child slipped away. I blame myself everyday for having this operation and wonder whether he would still be here today if I hadn't of had this surgery.
I was 12 weeks pregnant when I had my surgery and I was really worried about the risks, the doctors told me then it was a 10% risk of miscarry but they insisted I had the operation as if my appendix burst we could have both been in serious trouble. ( I later found out the risk was more like 40% than 10%) To further add to this the doctors said my appendix was fine.
I had my operation on the 25th July 2005 (my mums birthday of all days !) and the next day when I woke up I thought we'd both be fine, I went home the next day to rest. A couple of days later the 1st August 2005, I went to see my mum and I started to bleed, I knew there and then he was gone, My partner Sean and my mum were worried and said I should go up to the hospital to get checked out, after a 3 hour wait in A&E I was transferred up to the Early pregancy unit and to be honest they did nothing, no scan no tests nothing, just a shot of pethidine because by this point I was in alot of pain. I had to stay in to be monitored and I really did'nt want to stay because the male midwife was awful and in the end my mum shouted at him ! Thankfully the shift changed at 9 and a new midwife called Kathy came on. She was absolutely brilliant. She advised me to get some sleep so my mum and Sean went home about 10.30. I managed to drop off to sleep and the next thing I remember is waking up needing the loo.
I was bleeding heavily at this point and buzzed for Kathy and she took one look at me and said we need a doctor to come and take a look at you,I think you might be hemorraging. The doctor came and thankfully was a woman ! It was at this point when the doctor was examining me that Sam slipped away.
I have never felt so alone in all my life, Sean and my mum where on their way and that 20 minutes felt the longest in my life.
The midwife Kathy was amazing, she never left my side till sean and Mum got there, I will forever be truly grateful to her.
When I had some time to with Sean, Kathy came in and asked if I would like Sam to be blessed by the Priest so she rang and asked him to come. By this point she had placed him in a small wooden box and brought him to us.
The little service was beautiful and meant so much, Sam stayed with me all night, the next morning I wanted to go home and be with Maya so I took Sam with me. At this point I was given three options either have the hospital run tests on Sam to find out why he had passed, have him cremated at the hospital and have his ashes or have a small burial, I chose the burial so that he could be with my Mums mum, Nanna Edna, I just didn't want him to be on his own. I had Sam at home until his funeral on 8th August 2005. We had our preist do a small blessing at the graveside.
We tried to keep him here but the angels must have needed him more we pray everyday that he is save and happy with our special Grandparents who have also passed.
Sam has an older sister Maya and a younger brother Charlie and we will always make sure they remember their special brother. He will always be part of all our lives.
We love you Sam and think of you everyday and wish you were with us.
Please watch over us all
Sweet dreams our special little man until Mummy and daddy can be with you x x x
Sam's great grandad Walter Hargreaves and his Great Nanna Joyce Hughes (who passed very recently) also have dedications on Gone too Soon please light a candle for them too, it would bring great comfort.
I would just like to Say a HUGE THANKYOU for all your messages of support and candles for Sam, they have been a huge comfort.
God bless you all
Miss you
Hi Sam
Mummy just cant believe it's 6 years since we all lost you ! I've been to the florist to collect your extra special blue roses and she's put diamantes in them too ! A bit of bling eh ?
We miss you each and every day and love you with all our hearts
Daddy Maya Charlie and I will be up to see you later
Love you millions
X x. X
missing you Sam
Hi Sam
mummy just cant believe 5 years ago today you were taken away from us. Mummy and Daddy have got you some beautiful blue flowers and new windmills for your garden. We will be up soon to see you with Maya and Charlie.
We love and miss you so very much Sam, Mummy is always here little man x x x x
WE LOVE YOU !!!!
BIG HUGS SAM
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⋱♰⋰ Angel Day ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Your Angel Day in Heaven ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Many tears will fall for you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ You touched so many loving hearts ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ There’s so many missing you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ As you now live in paradise ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ Close to all your loved ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ family and friends that you miss you ever day ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ forgoten you take care love from me ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ Belanger hugs and XXXX ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ bye for now good ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ night ⋱♰⋰
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....Goodnight and God Bless..........
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Sleep Tight......X X
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Hi Sam,
mummy is feeling low today - what with nanna joyce leaving us two years ago today please give her big hugs from me daddy maya and charlie x
hope you have had lots of fun with nanna and grandad today - i miss you little man
love you forever and always Ssm
Mummy x x x
beautiful boy
hello beautiful baby boy, we miss you and think about you every day. watch over us all, especially mummy and daddy, wholl be feeling sad about you becoming an angel this time 4 years ago.We pray for you baby boy, love you millions auntie holly and uncle bren xxxxxxx
on your angelversary
Hello beautiful boy
mummy and daddy are thinking of you and wishing you were here with us.
we can't believe you were taken 4 years ago today.
we love and miss you all the world
watch over us and come see us in our dreams
all our love now and always
Mummy Daddy
Maya and Charlie
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Hello beautiful boy!
Hello baba boy, hope your ok and that your all tucked up nice and warm, its way past your bedtime! But if i know nana joyce shell be sneaking one last cuddle. Watch over us these next couple of month beautiful, i know youll understand why. Make mummy strong because shes going to need it to cope with me, love you always and forever, big kisses gorgeous xxxx
Happy Due Date Sam !
Hi beautiful
Well happy due date 3 today !!!
Daddy and I visited your garden and brought you those beautiful blue roses I hope you liked them just like Man City ! (but sssh ! don't tell Daddy, he wanted red for Man U but I got my way !)
We hope Nanna and your Grandads made sure you had a perfect party today and invited all your angel friends too !
We think of you each and everyday darling and miss you so very much.
Please come see us in our dreams soon x x
We love you all the world and back again beautiful boy send all our love to everyone x x
Love you much
Mummy & Daddy
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Hi Baby Boy
Hi Sam
Sorry Mummy not been around here lately its just that I have been having a hard couple of months with one thing or another -I know you understand and are watching over us all I feel you round me all the time so Thank you Sam for protecting me.
Nearly time for your due date again beautiful boy Mummy and Daddy are going to plan something special for your day
We love you so much beautiful
Love you always and forever
Mummy
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This Tribute Is For This Weekend A Little Longer Than Usual. Sorry It's So Early I've Got A Busy Weekend Ahead
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I will light my candles as usual on Sunday
Our memories build a special bridge
When loved ones have to part.
To help us feel we're with them still
And soothe a grieving heart.
Our memories span the years we shared,
Preserving ties that bind.
They build a special bridge of love
And bring us peace of mind.
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And took me by the hand.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
We pledge to you today:
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay.
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place
No one will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone.
Part of us went with you
The day God took you home.
Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela (Christopher-John Rowe) Mum
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